What Could Be

Song I wrote to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yOCRRF4BRuU

Dear Kellsie,

Growing up is hard. People weren't joking when they told us that when we were little. But no one told me about the war that I would wage within my own self. The bottom line is: life is just too goddam short to waste hating yourself and your surroundings or honestly, anything in general.

Say the things you want to say. Yes, you'll say some stupid shit, but you'll also say some amazing things and who knows, you may just end up saving someone. Go for that run you've been procrastinating. But also eat that extra slice of cake. Just fucking eat it. Live for yourself and absolutely no one else. Do what you want. Don't hurt other people in the process, but don't go out of your way trying to impress people, either. Odds are, three years from now or less, they'll be irrelevant to you anyway. Strive for your goals. Get your hopes up and shoot for the stars. I hate using cheesy cliches, but you truly may just grab the moon.

Most importantly, don't be afraid to do what you want. Be yourself and enjoy this crazy, messed up ride. It's terrifying and risky, yes, but it's also beautiful. So many people's ride get cut short. So many people don't have the opportunities you do, so don't ever waste them or take them for granted. I'm not saying it's not okay to be sad or throw the occasional pity-party, because it is. Let yourself feel that sadness to the largest degree. Feel all your emotions as strongly as you can. But don't let it keep you down. Life is so short and so fragile and I'd rather you have a lake of regrets with an ocean of positive memories than a drop of regret among a puddle of fond recollections. Go all out. Do it. I wish the absolute best for you and can't stand the thought of you sad. Do what I've never done. Please, just go do it. Starting right now. Not today, not tomorrow, not "later," but right this second.

Sincerely,
Alice.